Surrender

by Lori Mancini in Uncategorized with 3 Comments

Lori Mancini is writing this one…and the opinions in this piece belong solely to her.

Depression kills. In light of the recent passing of Robin Williams, we are confronting this topic once again.

Depression kills your spirit, dampens your light, and douses your fire. Depression is insidious, a slowly seeping smudge at first, and  then a spreading inky stain that blurs the window of your soul. This darkness is debilitating, and reminds us how flawed and fragile we are.

Some of the most talented people we know flirt with this darkness; they believe it feeds their creativity. I’m not sure, maybe it does.  But there’s a fine line that is continually being pushed to keep that darkness at bay. Sometimes we can control it. Others times, we can’t. We resign ourselves to the darkness instead of surrendering. Surrendering to accepting and seeing what is, acknowledging and being open. Asking the question, ‘how do I make the best of this?’ And having the strength to receive…receive  light, love, and help with pushing it all back.

Depression is a taboo topic, and so subjective. One in three suffer from depression and or panic/anxiety attacks  once in their lifetime.Naysayers think depression can be turned on and off. They question its existence. Start feeling better, now!  It doesn’t work that way. Most people who suffer from depression hide behind smiles and are exhausted from trying to remain strong.

A wise woman recently told me that the darkness is temporary and should be considered a stepping stone. Take it one day at a time, one moment if necessary. And carve out time in your day to reflect on what you are grateful for. 5 gratefuls every day. Even if it’s just opening your eyes and having the ability to put your feet on the floor. Even in our darkest hours, we need to seek out the little slivers of light. Collectively those little slivers become  a beam and slowly we can thankfully turn our faces to the warm beam of hope.

Breathe.

Start to acknowledge your self worth.

Start to receive the support of the outstretched hand of your community.

Start to be seen.

Start healing…healing is starting…the beginning of a new beginning.

And shame on anyone who ridicules the process along the way.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

3 Responses

  1. Denise Draeger says:

    you write so beautifully…thank you for such inspiration on such a difficult topic, your writing is filled with hope and love. thank you

  2. Lauren says:

    This is very inspiring. Thank you for writing it down.

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